- Your Integrative Health Coach -
My story has a lot of little details. A lot of challenges added up, and hurdles I've had to jump over - or trip over and have to get up and try again. I'm going to lay it all out right up front so we all know where I'm coming from:
I've been having diagnoses thrown at me since upper elementary, including asthma, Type One Diabetes, heart disease, potential infertility, hormone imbalances, rapid obesity, a serious gluten allergy, an intolerance to grains and dairy, and finally with Lupus*. Between all of these was every kind of diet you can think of, countless attempts at hardcore workout routines, and nothing but personal failures - or at least that's how I looked at them. By the time I entered high school I was riddled with self-hate, I avoided mirrors like the plague, I had no self-esteem, I was an inconsistent crash-dieter and was still, year after year, getting more and more bad news from the doctor. I felt ugly, unloveable, unworthy and I still had over half a decade before I decided I didn't want to feel like this any more.
Jump forward to August of 2018, I'm sitting in an Integrative doctors office as a 22 year old adult, waiting to see if I was FINALLY going to get some solid, positive news. I'd been so excited to potentially get a diagnosis, having had so many previous misdiagnosis before hand. I was excited to know "What is wrong with me?!" When I did get the answer I had been wanting - "Looks like you have lupus, Dani" - I felt that positivity for the remainder of the afternoon. Until I woke up the next day. That's whenI first felt the mourning, not relief.
That feeling lasted for a few months, but those days were filled with a new kind of depression that I hadn't experienced before. I literaly felt like something had died, and really, something did. It was the realization that I was going to live the rest of my life with this illness, and never experience life in this energetic, healthy way. Thoughts like "how I could have allowed this to happen?!" or "why can't my body just be healthy?!" crowded my mind and left little to no room for any of the excitement and positivity I had had before the appointment.
Because of these thought patterns, I suffered my first official lupus flare-up within a month of learning of my new illness. Which scared the living hell out of me. I knew I needed to get control of my health and my life in order to live victoriously and proudly with lupus.
It took my about three months to get to this point, and another handful to get myself back into a better mental space, and to get myself to being able to do some yoga over ten minutes long. Since that mental switch I have been on the path of trials, errors and small victories; I feel proud of my accomplishments. I have found through my journey with my health and living with lupus the passion I have for helping others with autoimmune diseases, especially those of us just getting started in our adult lives.
I have had to realign my priorities, work through the difference between what society demands of me, and what my body needs from me. My personal mentality is to be consistently changing, and to being in tune with my body.
I know what it feels like to feel out of control of your body, and not understand why. I know what it feels like to be given a diagnosis or news and have no clue where to start. I know what it feels like to be ashamed of your body, and to feel completely alone. If any of my story resonates with you, please know: I see you, I hear you, and I understand you. If you have any question regarding my programs or anything else, I would love to hear from you! Send me an email from my Contact Me page with Session Questions in the subject line and I'll get back to you asap.
Woah. That's a lot about me! I hope to hear about you too, very soon. Thank you so much for taking the time to get to know me and visiting my website. I am excited to work along side you while you create the full and healthy life you deserve!
Talk to you soon,
*Lupus is an autoimmune disease that effects the joints, skin, kidneys, brain, lungs amongst many other areas of the body and mind.